Starting to get to know Plain Jane- Where I'm at

 I'm following through since I said I'd post this morning. 

So where I am at. Literally, I'm sitting in my favorite bagel shop. I don't normally get a bagel though because I'm trying to lose weight. Slowly, I am, too. 

Figuratively I am not in the best spot. I just quit my job. Again. I quit mentally a few weeks ago but actually pulled the trigger yesterday. No notice which I feel terrible about because it was a small business and they relied on me. This is what I do though.... I give so much of my energy to my employers that eventually I just turn into a fly that gets stuck in glue. I hit a wall and break down. When I work somewhere I make that job my fucking life. At least in the sense that all the things I put energy into, I put the most into my job. This is great for the employer for however long I have energy for. But once my tank has run out that's it. Terrible for my employer and me, because I fuck them, and I get sad. 

I cannot do confrontation. I can't. I am a nervous person and at all costs avoid it. 

So I just quit my job, I'm a baker by the way. Food and bev ever since I could work and I hate it. Or maybe I just haven't found the right place. I do have some new jobs starting soon. I was hired at this other little spot downtown. I'll be the pastry assistant. They're really nice people, the owners and other people who work there. They're like.... christians. So they're good people and care about you, from what I've experienced so far. I also have a second job, that will start too. I'll be serving again! But also.... BARTENDING!! I really want to bartend. I have never done it before. In my book bartenders are at the top of the front of house food chain. So that's really exciting. It's a small restaurant also downtown. It seems really chill, and from what the owner said they don't deal with shit people. Like they'll kick you out if you're terrible. 

So these two new jobs I am looking forward to. Is this enough "where I'm at" chat? What else can I share? My jobs engulf my personality. Because I'm in this in between it's like I don't have a personality right now. I am going to make a separate post about myself. Not relating to my jobs.